Bursting at the Seams

So I still had to buy a suit for that gosh darn board meeting. I went to Belk's, cause it was close...and was summarily dismayed at the prices. I've hit the ten pound mark at this point but was also dismayed that I couldn't fit a regular 16. BUT the eighteen's were too big, so that was a small victory. I found a nice lined linen suit for a really good price and ended up having to safety pin the waist because it was so big. :)

Only lost one pound this week, but considering what I had this weekend, I'm okay with that. I've been hitting the gym regularly and maybe that's why I can fit into some of the "Too Small Suitcase" clothes. I have on a pair of pants that I could get into at my previous weight but...they were definitely hugging...TIGHT. So I tried a pair of jean capris when I went out Sunday. They're stretch so I knew they would be snug but I could definitely tell the difference. I didn't have to suck things in to the get the zipper up like the last time I had worn them. And I didn't feel like I was bursting at the seams. I've worn a few other things from this suitcase this week. The capris I have on now, I remember a picture from Kenya where I had these on....and you could see how they were fitting around the panty-line. I can't explain it any better. Mind you, they're not falling off my body but they definitely look better today than they did then. I delight in the small things.

Hopefully, I can hit the 15 pound mark next week. Hitting the gym before I go hang out wiht a homie tonight. Hoping to stay ON THE PLAN!!! AHHH!! I keep thinking about Labor Day with my homies and another event at the end of September. I'm trying to analyze what would be a good goal for that point. I'm thinking 175-180. I don't know what these weeks hold, with going-away parties and moving and all. I've lost 2 lbs in a week before so that would technically put me at 172 but..thats with a consistent 2 lbs per week. So I'm going to go with a classy 180 by the end of September. That gives me a lot of room to work with :)

That is all. OH I finally saw Phat Girlz. Well, kinda. I wasn't there for the whole movie. I love seeing men loving thick women. But I like that they were still trying to lose weight, so it wasn't just "I'm big, beautiful and loving it...and planning to stay this way despite it being unhealthy." You've got to love yourself regardless...I can appreciate that. Interesting that the big girl lovers were African...might be time for another trip to the motherland. :)

Summer Business

Weighed in this morning. Lost 2.5 pounds which is definitely not bad. 1.9 away from the 15 lb mark. :) Have to buy some "summer business" clothes for Friday's board meeting. I've been avoiding Marshall's, TJMaxx, Old Navy, etc. because I don't want to buy any new clothes for a while. (Bad enough my money seeps out of my pocket on books and other stuff). But my boss informed me that I need to attend the board meeting on Friday, in proper attire. So I guess I'll be at Marshall's or Ross or somewhere relatively cheap getting me some clothes that are business but I won't catch fire in. Plus clothing shopping can be discouraging, especially if you are still the same clothing size you were ten pounds ago. I'll still be sixteen. It would be great to be a 14 when I buy something new. But I'm being forced. Grrr.

Oops...

Hehehe. I wanted to post about my weekend apartment hunting. I only lost .5 pound last week, which was surprising. Actually, when I weighed in on Wednesday, I had gained 1.5 pounds, but on Thursday, I saw a .5 loss...so that's what I went with. Hey! Don't judge me. I need to be moderately encouraged. So I stood on my scale thinking "what happened? I know I kinda messed up on Saturday but...and a little on Sunday but..."

Here's what happened.

Two of my friends and I went out Friday just to get a drink. I didn't want to waste my points on alcohol, especially since I still had to drive. But I didn't want a water or Diet Coke. So I got some sort of fruit smoothie (which was still...really...a waste of points). Mind you, earlier that day, I had this delicious salad from Panera Bread...that had pecans on it. I was thinking that those wouldn't be that bad, though I didn't know their Points value. Plus I had the bread on the side that I was like...oh its only 2 Points (I think). So we have the pecan, the bread and the fruit smoothie. On Friday.

Saturday, the bf and I had lunch at some Tavern and we both had shrimp for an appetizer and a burger and fries. We had been discussing getting some dessert but for some reason, decided against it. We ate later at my friend's house, Jamaican beef patties, fruit...I had about 6 beef patties.

Sunday...we went to Wendy's. Did I order a salad? No. Chicken nuggets for four points? No. A spicy chicken salad. And fries. And a diet coke :)....and a new Vanilla Frostie :(. Then there was teh meal at Friday's...the alcoholic mixed drink, split a plate of fried calamari, that deep dish pizza (pepperoni and mushrooms...i can have mushrooms :) ). Yeah. When you think about it like THAT...I can see why it was so significant.

It adds up. This week has been a lot better though. I'll let you know how the weight check tomorrow goes. See if I made up for that 72-hour "freebie" I gave myself a little while ago.

Dime Piece!

10 lbs down! Hooray. I don't think I look much different but my mom says my face is a little thinner. That could be that motherly love coming out...telling you what you want to hear. But she did tell me that she's noticed that I've cut down my portions. I used to clear a plate. Two of them. I would clear the first one (which would have decent sized servings..whole chicken breast, 1.5-2 large spoons of rice, lots of vegetables...two-three pieces of bread [throughout the meal for the bread]) then go back for a second one. The second one would usually have normal portions on it. But again..that's after the first one. Appetite has never been an issue for me. Never had to worry about me ordering something and not eating all of it. I had to be STUFFED to stop eating. Parents: don't teach your kids this clear your plate thing, especially with portions getting bigger and bigger. You'll find yourself on Maury talking about how your children eat a bucket of chicken for snack. Totally inappropriate.

It's nice that its been noticed. I've been noticing things as well. I don't do well with portion control and alcohol. As in, I don't control my portions of alcohol well. One thing I will have to worry about this weekend when I go to a friend's housewarming....Hmm. Lite beer? A small glass of wine perhaps? I don't know.

Anyway, I think I'll be more excited about the weight loss when it gets more substantial. 196 was my high last time I lost a significant amount of weight. So to get down to that number makes me step back and say...dang, you reallllly got big this time. I think it will be a while before I get to a weight I'm comfortable with. Again, I'm thinking something like 40- 50 lbs. Let me get to a number I don't remember seeing since I was 16. But I'm working out this time, so hopefully I'll lose some of the fluff. I am hoping though..that by August...I can fit into my too-small-clothes suitcase. I have a suitcase of clothes that (I think) I could fit last summer. I bought them at the beginning of last summer. And I don't have a habit of buying clothes that don't fit. But I can't remember my weight then. Upper eighties, low nineties? Maybe. I really can't remember. But that sounds like a good goal for end of July/ August. My goal is 180. Again, another number I've seen before, that I've looked at myself and said "I want to lose weight." I can't remember a time when I didn't want to lose weight. When it wasn't a niggling thought in the back or front of my mind. That would be nice. I'd like to have a muscle sticking out, somewhere. I'm tired of being fluffy. :(