Dime Piece!

10 lbs down! Hooray. I don't think I look much different but my mom says my face is a little thinner. That could be that motherly love coming out...telling you what you want to hear. But she did tell me that she's noticed that I've cut down my portions. I used to clear a plate. Two of them. I would clear the first one (which would have decent sized servings..whole chicken breast, 1.5-2 large spoons of rice, lots of vegetables...two-three pieces of bread [throughout the meal for the bread]) then go back for a second one. The second one would usually have normal portions on it. But again..that's after the first one. Appetite has never been an issue for me. Never had to worry about me ordering something and not eating all of it. I had to be STUFFED to stop eating. Parents: don't teach your kids this clear your plate thing, especially with portions getting bigger and bigger. You'll find yourself on Maury talking about how your children eat a bucket of chicken for snack. Totally inappropriate.

It's nice that its been noticed. I've been noticing things as well. I don't do well with portion control and alcohol. As in, I don't control my portions of alcohol well. One thing I will have to worry about this weekend when I go to a friend's housewarming....Hmm. Lite beer? A small glass of wine perhaps? I don't know.

Anyway, I think I'll be more excited about the weight loss when it gets more substantial. 196 was my high last time I lost a significant amount of weight. So to get down to that number makes me step back and say...dang, you reallllly got big this time. I think it will be a while before I get to a weight I'm comfortable with. Again, I'm thinking something like 40- 50 lbs. Let me get to a number I don't remember seeing since I was 16. But I'm working out this time, so hopefully I'll lose some of the fluff. I am hoping though..that by August...I can fit into my too-small-clothes suitcase. I have a suitcase of clothes that (I think) I could fit last summer. I bought them at the beginning of last summer. And I don't have a habit of buying clothes that don't fit. But I can't remember my weight then. Upper eighties, low nineties? Maybe. I really can't remember. But that sounds like a good goal for end of July/ August. My goal is 180. Again, another number I've seen before, that I've looked at myself and said "I want to lose weight." I can't remember a time when I didn't want to lose weight. When it wasn't a niggling thought in the back or front of my mind. That would be nice. I'd like to have a muscle sticking out, somewhere. I'm tired of being fluffy. :(